Not meant to be.....

Well, I'm extremely sad to say that this situation didn't work out with Amanda. We made the decision yesterday afternoon. Amanda's mother was continuing to make things difficult and basically said that if we didn't agree to pay for all medical bills---no matter what, they wanted to look at other adoptive parents. We had to cut our loses and move on. We just couldn't put ourselves in that type of situation. Most likely everything would have been fine and we would just have to pay for a typical delivery situation, but what if it wasn't??? And the craziest thing of all is that she was getting on her high horse on medical care-like we didn't want the best care for Amanda or her baby-yet the mother hasn't even taken her own daughter to the doctor and by now she has to be 18-19 wks along. It's almost comical.

The adoption coordinator basically told me that this mother was sending alot of "red flags" and she thought that we shouldn't go forward. It broke our hearts to have to turn away, but we just couldn't go into with a good feeling. We have to conclude that this probably wouldn't be the last type of confrontation the mother would throw at us. She was truly being unreasonable and very difficult to work with.

Needless to say we are devastated. We go from a super high to an extreme low. I know that another baby is already being prepared...I have to keep on saying that to myself. It's funny to hear me say this right now...but God is good. I prayed yesterday morning that if this baby wasn't meant to be ours to just let it end now. He definitely answered my prayer...although it really wasn't the answer I wanted! I wanted it to be..yes this is definitely the child I have for you and everything is going to work out perfect!

Do continue to pray for Amanda and her baby. Her mom doesn't seem very supportive. Pray for us. Pray that we will get our prayers answered quickly and OUR baby will be in our arms soon. We want this so desperately and it's easy to get discouraged.