Adoption Papers Signed!!

Friday we went to see Myra along with her counselor to sign the consent form for the adoption. It's a huge step--we've never got this far before. Surprisingly it is an extremely short document with probably only 10 bullets. All she had to do was sign it in front of a notary public. Seems a little nuts that this little document is the only thing that takes her rights as a parent away. We wanted to leave the document with her so she could go over it and not feel rushed in signing it, but she insisted on doing it right then and there. I am very thankful that she did and that part is over with.

We are convinced that this is her final decision-she is so ready to be "done" with this pregnancy. It funny because as we were chatting I got very emotional-I think it's because we both want to move on with our lives and this babies birth is monumental for both of us-just in very different ways. I'm so ready for her to get here, I can barely stand it.

Myra seems so much more relaxed than she has since we met her. I think she's realizing that she can't be in control of everything-only herself and her actions. She also has made a birth plan and I'm so glad she did. She has people in place to call-from our church-that have said they will be with her. For that, I'm so thankful. I don't want her to be alone after the baby comes-I know it will be so hard for her. I want to support her in everyway possible, but I know that I won't be able to do it myself. She probably won't even want to see me, I don't know....it makes me sad that we won't be continuing a relationship-but I know it's the best for both of us. She's an amazing women and I'm so proud of the changes she's making in her life.

We go to the doctor on Tuesday to find out what's truly going on with her due date. They are going to do an ultrasound to find out how big she really is....she measured 39 wks a wk and 1/2 ago. I'm anxious for this appt and hope that it will give us a better idea of when our baby will really be here. I truly think that she's coming in the next 2 wks. I'm sure it's wishful thinking-but maybe I'll be right!